Let's Catch Up
Reflecting on what rattled my senses last week. It was all about resistance and change.
🤔 Thinking a lot about Resistance.
You know that feeling when life is telling you to go, but there is a squeeze required to move forward.
Resistance to change is a sign - not a stop sign. 🛑
The moment you dare to change, resistance shows up. Not because you’re wrong - but because you're growing.
The fear, the self doubt, the not now, the I’ll do it when… It mean’s you’re stretching. It’s a sign you are wanting more for yourself. You are daring to dream bigger.
Resistance is your saboteurs testing you… do you really want more for you? Are you sure you want to be a better version of you?
So if you are like me and feeling some resistance, you’re not off track, your want of something better is here to revel the strength already inside you, the knowing you are capable and deserving of more.
💠Is life Inviting you to Change?
If you know me, you know that I pay attention to signs. Visible and invisible. It is definitely a side effect of hanging out with me.
Over the last week, signs have been rattling me to change old ways. As I step onto bigger stages sharing my passion for Emotional Health and helping women release old patterns so they can step into a life that is wildly their own, I find myself being invited to do the same. Reiterating the fact that to be a guide for others doesn’t mean you are perfect, it means you are just one step ahead in the dark forest they find themselves in.
This week my old patterns of being are screaming to be disrupted. Stuffing emotions, insignificance and believing I am not worthy have declared they are no longer part of the person I want to be. It’s been messy. And, as I process and contemplate, many signs appear that support the change.
The photos above were taken 1) at a coffee shop, 2) on the street corner and, 3) from a page that I opened to in an old journal. They whisper from the inside…
I want to be alive, not part of the walking dead. To sparkle.
I can feel vulnerable (naked even) as I dance to a different sheet of music - speaking up for myself, stepping on the bigger stage, keeping my heart open even with the possibility I will be rejected.
I can give myself Permission to be Human. (Notes from a course taken in 2018 with one of my favorite teachers, Dr. Rick Hanson, reminding me I have all that I need to grow forward.)
😔😢😡😊🥰 Feeling it All.
Through this dark night of the soul week a resource I found helpful was Dr. Marc Brackett’s app How We Feel. Using it gave me more words to describe how I was feeling, while also providing resources to regulate my nervous system — if only for a hot second. For a person that has spent a lifetime avoiding emotions, this has been a lifesaver and life giver on my journey back to emotional health.
Resistance. The struggle is real. May this vulnerable post be of benefit and remind you that Love is the answer. Love that really does start with you.
